these words just break and melt

i can't sleep
i don't even know how to fucking feel
where do i begin to make sense of it
why is this all happening now
i feel like i'm dying a little bit more everyday

i can't afford to go back to anyone
just let me be alone
and please keep your problems away from me

i don't think this post is making sense
i'll try to get things off my chest

so
here we go.
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once upon a time
people believed in real love
love where two people shared everything together
and they loved one another based on who they are
not on who they should be
they loved one another through the thick and thin
through the good and bad
and realized that they could not live without one another
only that one person's love was the most satisfying
and because of that satisfaction they did not need to look in other places

what happened to that
why are people searching for love in all the wrong places
one night stands, broken hearts
a recipe for disaster that is destined for repetition
because you'll never learn the first time
which leads to more broken hearts
more one night stands

i'll be waiting for that love
that i can share with that one person
and assure to him
that i will never hurt him
because i know how rare it is
to find someone
who won't hurt
or betray you
for all the wrong reasons

i don't want to break hearts
and i don't need your one night stands
because my love
is not meant for you anyway