As if things in my life couldn't get any more difficult.
My mother phoned me today, and instead of being supportive and understanding, she begins to tell me how I should not go to school for music. Apparently, both my mom and dad have been talking about it, and they think that I should do business instead. They'd rather me stay in Cranbrook and go to the college there.
Are you kidding me? I can't stand it there. I can't stand the people, the bull shit, the isolation, and so much more. THIS is where I belong. Why can't they let me make my own decisions? For pete sake, I'm going to be 21 in October.
Music is the only thing that has made me happy. And they both know it.
This summer is going to fucking suck. I have to pretend to be friends with people that I don't even associate with, act like all is cool between my father and I, and just live a double life. I hate it. I hate it sooo much and I just dread the thought of going back every single day.
I want to enjoy my remaining time here. I do not want to argue with my parents over anything anymore. That part of my life was sooo high school. Why can't we have civilized adult conversations, and accept the fact that I've grown up and that I will not conform to their desires.
I am sooo mad.
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