i just want to spread love

My friend Brandon and I had some pretty interesting discussions today. We were talking about how the world has been changing, and it's not changing for the better. Mainly our topic focused on the issue of relationships (friendships, family, and personal).

It seems as though in this day and age everyone is out to hurt someone. It may be intentional, or unintentional (mainly through misunderstandings), but there are very few who try to work on or solve the problem that's causing the doubt, misery, pain, or sadness.

Many people now are not trying for a meaningful, personal relationship. Many seek a physical alternative rather than the emotional one. They lose out on the people who might have actually cared about them. It's a bitter fall. Those candidates who are wanting someone to love for their entire lives are being pushed into the corner, or instead they change themselves to fit in with society. We are losing who we are as individuals.

People are not willing to be themselves. I know that I genuinely love myself for who I am. I have my own morals and beliefs, and if people are uneasy about it, that's their problem.
Another problem that's arising is the lack of support from peers or friends for the people who are having problems in life. I hear a lot of people say that they would "rather not get involved" with an issue because they fear retribution from other non-supporters. I know that many people are like me, but it breaks my heart when I see someone suffering. And I feel worse when I don't do anything to help them. I don't have a heart of stone.

This conversation started when I talked to Brandon about my fears. I'm terrified of being hurt emotionally. I give people so much sometimes that it's draining. When it comes to the opposite sex, I worry that he will not respect the choices that I make for myself. From experiences that I've gone through, I've created a mindset that focused on loving just one person. I want to love someone for who they are. And I want someone to love me as well. I want to work on problems and strengthen a relationship. But people get scared by one word: commitment. I want to commit to someone. But do you know how hard it is to find that kind of being?

xx