okay. time to get real (like I haven't been real enough lately)
i'm getting rid of my facebook. it's such a waste of time, and people can just reach me via e-mail or phone if they really need to.
i'm finally being responsible with my life. many hours have been poured into studying music, and it's going to be like this until i'm satisfied with what i can do (haha. i'll never be satisfied. i'm too picky)
i've let go of tons of people, and it's really sad right now. but it'll pass. i really need to go outside and enjoy things. i've been stuck in the house for the last few days just because i've been so depressed. but life has to go on.
as much as i love my friends, i don't think i'll be seeing many this summer. i'm not happy with myself at all. and i don't think it's right to be such a downer around them, spreading around sadness.
things with my father won't ever improve, so i've just accepted it. it really, really hurts. however, if he can't accept me, then that is just how things go i suppose. this is def. the most painful thing in my life.
hopefully by the time the summer is over, i'll be much more happier. more patient. more understanding. and less naive.
i am really, really trying.
pray for me.
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