another day of clouds... really?
when was the last time we had some sunshine? i can't even remember...
i woke up about an hour ago. i haven't been feeling too well lately, mostly just aches and pains, but i'm sure a walk will change that. there is so much to do today.
organization around the home is going somewhat well... i've become really good at forgetting where things are. at least once a day i have to go on an easter egg hunt for something i need - it takes at least a good fifteen minutes until i find what i'm looking for. what a waste of time.
i'm thinking of heading into town with my mom and just doing something. i've been home for a good little while, and it's taking a toll on my sanity. i don't really need to get anything, but i'd really like to be out and about with my mom.
i'm thinking of calling some people in nannerz tonight. i miss them so darn much! paul just headed out for london, so that's sad. and i'm guessing ebony is lonely as heck without doug or paul. so i should give her a shout.
some happy news: connor sent me an e-mail saying he wants to call me sometime soon and talk. the last time i talked to him was about 2 months ago. i'm betting it's going to be one long conversation... so much has happened between now and then.
tomorrow it will be may 1st... holy woooow. where does the time go? raj's birthday is on the fourth, so i'm thinking of making something creative for him. i have some cool cake ideas, and i'll probably just make him a gift. 22 years old and still the same as ever... haha i hope he never changes.
time to go do something productive... i'm thinking a shower and then some music practice for a start.
oooh one more thing. i looked into my chakra reading last night... turns out i'm strongest in the crown and throat chakra's... makes sense. i'm really getting into meditation.
ah.. i'm turning into such a hippie.. but truthfully i love it.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
hand me those vitamins
i'm becoming so unhealthy
physically we need our nutrients to fight sickness,
and to be in high gear
--------------------------------
emotionally famished
it's something that can't be solved with a pill
a small dose could help
hopefully soon it will come my way
unless...
i lose it forever
and continue to be ill
--------------------------------
after all that i've been giving,
when will i receive (even a little) in return.
physically we need our nutrients to fight sickness,
and to be in high gear
--------------------------------
emotionally famished
it's something that can't be solved with a pill
a small dose could help
hopefully soon it will come my way
unless...
i lose it forever
and continue to be ill
--------------------------------
after all that i've been giving,
when will i receive (even a little) in return.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
everyone is invincible, but it's all pretend
when it comes down to matters of the heart, there will be times when you risk everything to move on... and this is where i'm at.
i had a good talk with naomi last night, and just like everyone else, she said the same thing.
i could just be magnifying it too much, but it seems like i go through the most complicated situations compared to everyone else. it's so frustrating.
when most people my age are stressing about what to wear for their date, i fight with internal battles and strange conflicts. i grew up way too fast, and because of it i forgot how to have fun.
i didn't get any sleep last night. i focused on what aspects of my life i need to put behind me, or get closure of.
as mentioned in my previous post, i'm still in the process of losing some very important people.
just the very thought of what i have to do scares the life out of me.
but i have to do it, for myself. i've focused on other people's problems for far too long instead of fixing my own.
it's going to be one long summer.
i had a good talk with naomi last night, and just like everyone else, she said the same thing.
i could just be magnifying it too much, but it seems like i go through the most complicated situations compared to everyone else. it's so frustrating.
when most people my age are stressing about what to wear for their date, i fight with internal battles and strange conflicts. i grew up way too fast, and because of it i forgot how to have fun.
i didn't get any sleep last night. i focused on what aspects of my life i need to put behind me, or get closure of.
as mentioned in my previous post, i'm still in the process of losing some very important people.
just the very thought of what i have to do scares the life out of me.
but i have to do it, for myself. i've focused on other people's problems for far too long instead of fixing my own.
it's going to be one long summer.
Monday, April 27, 2009
heavy on the eyes
ah, i want this to subside
feels like i'm dying
this is so hard
life can be unfair
i really hope i'm thinking this through properly
i'm tired of crying
feels like i'm dying
this is so hard
life can be unfair
i really hope i'm thinking this through properly
i'm tired of crying
has the race gone underwater
music is the best thing ever. it's such an escape from reality.
a list of artists that i'm currently listening to:
- andrew bird
- mute math
- jem
- meiko
- hey ocean!
- william fitzsimmons
- junior boys
- cadence
- depeche mode
- melody gardot
and many more. paul is trying to break me into more heavy stuff... genghis tron is pretty coool haha.
yay, I can't wait for our phone conversation tomorrow. two weeks have felt like an eternity.
a list of artists that i'm currently listening to:
- andrew bird
- mute math
- jem
- meiko
- hey ocean!
- william fitzsimmons
- junior boys
- cadence
- depeche mode
- melody gardot
and many more. paul is trying to break me into more heavy stuff... genghis tron is pretty coool haha.
yay, I can't wait for our phone conversation tomorrow. two weeks have felt like an eternity.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
wonder if you're even there
sentence that describes my life as of late: "you win some, you lose some."
Although I've gone through milestones in my life, although things have improved with me, although I've become honest to everyone, although our family has re-connected, although I love all my friends, I've lost so many good people, and am in the process of losing.
Of course, this is just the way things are. It's the natural course of life. You shed those in order to make room for individuals who relate to your life in a certain way.
I won't lie. I miss them dearly; however, I can't do anything about it.
I can't stop thinking that how can it all just be me? One instance, for example, I know for certain that our situation was based on BOTH sides. As much as I want closure, I'll never get it. And I don't know why I'd even want it when nothing will ever come out of it.
But my HEART is breaking. It's the TRUTH to myself.
WHY did I ever get myself in this kind of mess? What do I even do?
Was it all my fault? Was it right for me to have made the decisions that I did?
It's futile to ask these questions. I'll never get an answer. It's best that I forget.
I can't.
Because it's where my heart had belonged from the start, and still belongs to this day.
And I truly hope that whatever caused us to come together helped on the other side. Even if it was only for a certain point in time. I hope all is well.
I hope you're happy.
But I can't deny this to myself, because it is the truth.
My life is still such a mess, and the only one who sees it is me.
It's better to have loved, then to have never loved at all.
On another topic, lyrics I'm digging:
How, how are we off on a tangent again?
Oh we say what we say
And the poison is breaking our skin
Blame, what's to blame?
It's an argument no one can win
Cause at best we don't know
And it's wearing us thin
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
Cards, we are cards
In a wheel spun around on the truth
Maybe we don't need to know
Any more than we have to
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
The sky is always wondering
What are these arguments about?
You'd think we would notice
Our eyes are burning up
We should have learned by now
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
It's all that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
-- Stare at the Sun, Mute Math
Although I've gone through milestones in my life, although things have improved with me, although I've become honest to everyone, although our family has re-connected, although I love all my friends, I've lost so many good people, and am in the process of losing.
Of course, this is just the way things are. It's the natural course of life. You shed those in order to make room for individuals who relate to your life in a certain way.
I won't lie. I miss them dearly; however, I can't do anything about it.
I can't stop thinking that how can it all just be me? One instance, for example, I know for certain that our situation was based on BOTH sides. As much as I want closure, I'll never get it. And I don't know why I'd even want it when nothing will ever come out of it.
But my HEART is breaking. It's the TRUTH to myself.
WHY did I ever get myself in this kind of mess? What do I even do?
Was it all my fault? Was it right for me to have made the decisions that I did?
It's futile to ask these questions. I'll never get an answer. It's best that I forget.
I can't.
Because it's where my heart had belonged from the start, and still belongs to this day.
And I truly hope that whatever caused us to come together helped on the other side. Even if it was only for a certain point in time. I hope all is well.
I hope you're happy.
But I can't deny this to myself, because it is the truth.
My life is still such a mess, and the only one who sees it is me.
It's better to have loved, then to have never loved at all.
On another topic, lyrics I'm digging:
How, how are we off on a tangent again?
Oh we say what we say
And the poison is breaking our skin
Blame, what's to blame?
It's an argument no one can win
Cause at best we don't know
And it's wearing us thin
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
Cards, we are cards
In a wheel spun around on the truth
Maybe we don't need to know
Any more than we have to
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
The sky is always wondering
What are these arguments about?
You'd think we would notice
Our eyes are burning up
We should have learned by now
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
Just a glare has become
All that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
But we never see anything there
All of nothing's become
All that we'll ever see there
It's all that we'll ever see there
And we stare at the sun
-- Stare at the Sun, Mute Math
Friday, April 24, 2009
red pill or blue pill
question your reality:
http://people.tribe.net/truthmovement
http://people.tribe.net/truthmovement
"Fear not the path of truth,
for the lack of people walking on it."
-- Robert F. Kennedy
for the lack of people walking on it."
-- Robert F. Kennedy
Thursday, April 23, 2009
one of many attempts for change
I'm sooo shocked that many people have no idea what CODEX ALIMENTARIUS is, and the lack of interest frightens me. If you care about the future of what you eat, and what is served to you at the dinner table, please take a moment FOR YOURSELF to read this and understand what's going on. If you choose to be ignorant, then don't cry in the future when you see billions of people die around you from malnutrition.
CODEX ALIMENTARIUS is a set of guidelines that concerns food, food safety and food production. It proposes that it intends to protect the health of consumers;, however, this is far from the truth.
If Codex Alimentarius is passed, any kind of natural health product (vitamins, supplements, minerals) will be considered to be DRUGS and will be ILLEGAL to sell to consumers. It proposes that no herb, vitamin or mineral can be sold for any kind of therapeutic use, and if anyone is caught selling any of the restricted items, they will be subject to HUGE fines, and even imprisonment.
If you think that is crazy, listen to this: Because these vitamins and minerals will be seen as illegal, they will also be stripped from all foods, genetically manipulating them to be insufficient in nutrients. They will take out all life sustaining nutrients for the codex says it is for your SAFETY. Don't you think this is going too far?
Meats, too, will only be sold in countries once they have been pumped with anti-biotics and growth hormones. Organic foods will cease to exist. Farmers will go bankrupt. I can go on and on.
The implication of the Codex will result in the deaths of BILLIONS from malnutrition, and simple sicknesses. Without life sustaining nutrients, the immune system cannot function, and will leave people susceptible to life threatening illness.
If you don't believe me, research it yourself:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Codex_Alimentarius
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmrF9KjlGsc
To those of you who DO understand all the risks associated with the codex, please try and inform others. Change can only come if people fight for what's right. Don't be asleep!
That is all.
CODEX ALIMENTARIUS is a set of guidelines that concerns food, food safety and food production. It proposes that it intends to protect the health of consumers;, however, this is far from the truth.
If Codex Alimentarius is passed, any kind of natural health product (vitamins, supplements, minerals) will be considered to be DRUGS and will be ILLEGAL to sell to consumers. It proposes that no herb, vitamin or mineral can be sold for any kind of therapeutic use, and if anyone is caught selling any of the restricted items, they will be subject to HUGE fines, and even imprisonment.
If you think that is crazy, listen to this: Because these vitamins and minerals will be seen as illegal, they will also be stripped from all foods, genetically manipulating them to be insufficient in nutrients. They will take out all life sustaining nutrients for the codex says it is for your SAFETY. Don't you think this is going too far?
Meats, too, will only be sold in countries once they have been pumped with anti-biotics and growth hormones. Organic foods will cease to exist. Farmers will go bankrupt. I can go on and on.
The implication of the Codex will result in the deaths of BILLIONS from malnutrition, and simple sicknesses. Without life sustaining nutrients, the immune system cannot function, and will leave people susceptible to life threatening illness.
If you don't believe me, research it yourself:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wi
http://www.youtube.com/wat
To those of you who DO understand all the risks associated with the codex, please try and inform others. Change can only come if people fight for what's right. Don't be asleep!
That is all.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
float like dandelions
I am wondering where the sunshine is today... nothing but clouds here in Marysville. Hopefully later a little sunshine will shine through.
Ah, things are going well. I've won the battle with the flu, my health is at optimum levels, relationships are very stable, and I'm liking who I am.
It's a bit difficult, of course, to be optimistic everyday. However, I am trying as hard as possible, and things are getting better (or so I hope they are).
I spent a great deal of time with my little brother last night, and I'm still amazed at how much he's grown in four months. We reminisced about school, friends, random things, and then played some video games (typical guy stuff ha ha). It was reaaally nice.
My mom and are doing well too. Much more understanding and acceptance. Now that I think about it, I was so stupid for everything that happened in the past... you totally are blind and stupid when you're a teen. Reason didn't seem to exist in those years.
I got some exciiiting news last night. Barb and I have been keeping in contact since September about world events and important information related to the future of everyone on the planet. Turns out her brother is doing some activist work here in Cranbrook, and I can get involved with it. I've really wanted to help wake people up, and this is the perfect opportunity. I'll have to give him a call asap. I'm really excited!
things to do today:
tax returns.
cleaning of sorts.
go for a run (if it doesn't rain on me).
music practice.
Ah, things are going well. I've won the battle with the flu, my health is at optimum levels, relationships are very stable, and I'm liking who I am.
It's a bit difficult, of course, to be optimistic everyday. However, I am trying as hard as possible, and things are getting better (or so I hope they are).
I spent a great deal of time with my little brother last night, and I'm still amazed at how much he's grown in four months. We reminisced about school, friends, random things, and then played some video games (typical guy stuff ha ha). It was reaaally nice.
My mom and are doing well too. Much more understanding and acceptance. Now that I think about it, I was so stupid for everything that happened in the past... you totally are blind and stupid when you're a teen. Reason didn't seem to exist in those years.
I got some exciiiting news last night. Barb and I have been keeping in contact since September about world events and important information related to the future of everyone on the planet. Turns out her brother is doing some activist work here in Cranbrook, and I can get involved with it. I've really wanted to help wake people up, and this is the perfect opportunity. I'll have to give him a call asap. I'm really excited!
things to do today:
tax returns.
cleaning of sorts.
go for a run (if it doesn't rain on me).
music practice.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
down by the sea
what i miss right now:
humidity that makes your hair soft
the sound of the ocean
forests that resemble the shire
walks along the waterfront
peace & quiet.
i think a run through the forest is greatly needed
humidity that makes your hair soft
the sound of the ocean
forests that resemble the shire
walks along the waterfront
peace & quiet.
i think a run through the forest is greatly needed
Monday, April 20, 2009
after afterall
i'm trying really hard
to stop judging people
to come to an understanding
to accept that everything happens for a reason
to live everyday like it was my last
to fuel hearts with gentle compassion
to let go of ego
to realize we're all in this together
to recognize that i can't help everyone
to give personal space
and most of all
to be at peace.
life's too short to frown.
to stop judging people
to come to an understanding
to accept that everything happens for a reason
to live everyday like it was my last
to fuel hearts with gentle compassion
to let go of ego
to realize we're all in this together
to recognize that i can't help everyone
to give personal space
and most of all
to be at peace.
life's too short to frown.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
georgia guidestones
- MAINTAIN HUMANITY UNDER 500,000,000
- IN PERPETUAL BALANCE WITH NATURE
- GUIDE REPRODUCTION WISELY —
- IMPROVING FITNESS AND DIVERSITY
- UNITE HUMANITY WITH A LIVING
- NEW LANGUAGE
- RULE PASSION — FAITH — TRADITION
- AND ALL THINGS
- WITH TEMPERED REASON
- PROTECT PEOPLE AND NATIONS
- WITH FAIR LAWS AND JUST COURTS
- LET ALL NATIONS RULE INTERNALLY
- RESOLVING EXTERNAL DISPUTES
- IN A WORLD COURT
- AVOID PETTY LAWS AND USELESS
- OFFICIALS
- BALANCE PERSONAL RIGHTS WITH
- SOCIAL DUTIES.
- PRIZE TRUTH — BEAUTY — LOVE —
- SEEKING HARMONY WITH THE
- INFINITE
- BE NOT A CANCER ON THE EARTH —
- LEAVE ROOM FOR NATURE —
- LEAVE ROOM FOR NATURE
- i think i'm going to be sick
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
fragile tension
rainbows in osoyoos =)
It has been two days since I've been home, and already I've come down with a fever. Last night I went to bed around 7:30, and didn't sleep for the entire night... felt like I was on fire and I hallucinated...
I'm a bit better now though. There are so many things I have to do this week, and being sick doesn't help at all.
I miss a lot of people back in Nanners. It's weird living with boundaries and rules again. I just need to keep myself busy I suppose.
I am happy to see my family again. It's a challenge, for sure. But everything will work out. It always does, so I'm not too worried.
Things to accomplish by next Wednesday:
- put out tons of resumes
- organize stuff around the house
- clean up the basement and set up my studio
- buy supplements
- see my friends =)
- get back on my exercise regimen (I don't want to put on the weight I worked so hard to lose!)
I'm going to go back to sleep so that I can (hopefully) be better by tomorrow.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
meh
i'm back home.
and now the four month countdown begins
it has only been the first day, and i've realized that people are still closed minded as ever.
and now the four month countdown begins
it has only been the first day, and i've realized that people are still closed minded as ever.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
i was nobody at all
i hate it when i lose my self-confidence
i guess i'll never know
i love all my friends so much
i guess i'm too nice
i feel like the biggest loser ever.
i guess i'll never know
i love all my friends so much
i guess i'm too nice
i feel like the biggest loser ever.
Friday, April 10, 2009
stop the time
what a roller coaster of a week.
So many things have happened in such a short span of time! I feel so alive and things seem so vibrant. Things are tying together perfectly, and I think I am prepared for my journey back home.
I really think I met an angel in disguise. I don't know where this is meant to go, and what weight it holds in the future, but I'm pretty content on the positive aspect of the situation.
Today I wrote my last exam, and I think I did alright. I learned everything in the span of two days. It would not be that difficult if Myron, our prof, would stop going on tangents unrelated to theory... argh. Anyways, I was at the school since 8:30am studying and hanging out with friends.
After the exam, Annie, Sasha and I hung out and went to the Red Martini to check out a performance; however, many people from the program went to other parties, so we left early. Sasha went her own way, so Annie and I hung out with Chikoe and Eli at Starbucks. Hilaaarious! We were hoping on attending a party... but unfortunately it didn't happen... we were pretty disappointed... ah well. Nothing beats a party in the NiteLife... LOL!
I got home a little while ago, so now I'm making a list on what I have to accomplish tomorrow before I do anything else... clean the house... start packing... etc, etc... Afterwards I have plans to see Annie, Ebony and my boys! I'm still a bit choked that Connor hasn't spoken to me in a month, but I guess you win some and lose some... I really hope things are going well for him.
So now, I begin my four day countdown until I'm back home.
I can't believe there are only FOUR days left!
So many things have happened in such a short span of time! I feel so alive and things seem so vibrant. Things are tying together perfectly, and I think I am prepared for my journey back home.
I really think I met an angel in disguise. I don't know where this is meant to go, and what weight it holds in the future, but I'm pretty content on the positive aspect of the situation.
Today I wrote my last exam, and I think I did alright. I learned everything in the span of two days. It would not be that difficult if Myron, our prof, would stop going on tangents unrelated to theory... argh. Anyways, I was at the school since 8:30am studying and hanging out with friends.
After the exam, Annie, Sasha and I hung out and went to the Red Martini to check out a performance; however, many people from the program went to other parties, so we left early. Sasha went her own way, so Annie and I hung out with Chikoe and Eli at Starbucks. Hilaaarious! We were hoping on attending a party... but unfortunately it didn't happen... we were pretty disappointed... ah well. Nothing beats a party in the NiteLife... LOL!
I got home a little while ago, so now I'm making a list on what I have to accomplish tomorrow before I do anything else... clean the house... start packing... etc, etc... Afterwards I have plans to see Annie, Ebony and my boys! I'm still a bit choked that Connor hasn't spoken to me in a month, but I guess you win some and lose some... I really hope things are going well for him.
So now, I begin my four day countdown until I'm back home.
I can't believe there are only FOUR days left!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
colours and shapes
things i liked (and loved) about today:
waking up to laughing friends and warm cinnamon waffles
self-motivation
listening to elbow while walking to school
finished theory assignments
the sun's rays baking my skin (15 degrees =) )
naturally wavy hair
hugs and tickles
guitar harmonies
bonfires and marshmallows
ever-lasting memories.
waking up to laughing friends and warm cinnamon waffles
self-motivation
listening to elbow while walking to school
finished theory assignments
the sun's rays baking my skin (15 degrees =) )
naturally wavy hair
hugs and tickles
guitar harmonies
bonfires and marshmallows
ever-lasting memories.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
as beautiful as the sun as it shines all over the world
It's Sunday morning, and just as any other Sunday, this one is lazy.
I woke up around noon, and cleaned up a bit. I talked on the phone with my mom, and we discussed how she and dad were going to re-vamp our basement. I'm really excited because that means I get my own little jam studio, and that only means privacy =) The downside of the room is the fact that there are no windows... so I'll have to depend on artificial light. But I'll get used to it... in time. I have to purchase a brand new keyboard, and I'm looking into some hardware as well. I'm pretty exciiiited! We also discussed my financial situation (and yes, I'm unbelievably broke, what's new) so I have a bunch of resume's lined up and ready to go. She said that there is this one job for the City of Kimberley, and it involves being outdoors... which I would love. I've worked my share of indoor jobs, but the outdoors is the best. We'll see how that goes... I have my fingers crossed.
It's currently sunny outside, so I should probably go out for a walk. The coast has had it's share of rain and gloom, but lately the sun's rays have been winning.
Later, Leah and I are going to head to Liam's place for some theory review/studying. I'm really stressed about this exam. It would be easier had I been a jazz student... but I'll still persevere. Also, I am very hungry... my mom can't wire me any money until Tuesday at the latest... which means I have to scrounge for food... haha. But that's okay because I'll be home on Sunday!
It's going to be a huge transition from leaving my new found "home" to my other home. I can't wait to see my old friends, and can only wonder of what new challenges lie ahead for me.
Ah, life.
I woke up around noon, and cleaned up a bit. I talked on the phone with my mom, and we discussed how she and dad were going to re-vamp our basement. I'm really excited because that means I get my own little jam studio, and that only means privacy =) The downside of the room is the fact that there are no windows... so I'll have to depend on artificial light. But I'll get used to it... in time. I have to purchase a brand new keyboard, and I'm looking into some hardware as well. I'm pretty exciiiited! We also discussed my financial situation (and yes, I'm unbelievably broke, what's new) so I have a bunch of resume's lined up and ready to go. She said that there is this one job for the City of Kimberley, and it involves being outdoors... which I would love. I've worked my share of indoor jobs, but the outdoors is the best. We'll see how that goes... I have my fingers crossed.
It's currently sunny outside, so I should probably go out for a walk. The coast has had it's share of rain and gloom, but lately the sun's rays have been winning.
Later, Leah and I are going to head to Liam's place for some theory review/studying. I'm really stressed about this exam. It would be easier had I been a jazz student... but I'll still persevere. Also, I am very hungry... my mom can't wire me any money until Tuesday at the latest... which means I have to scrounge for food... haha. But that's okay because I'll be home on Sunday!
It's going to be a huge transition from leaving my new found "home" to my other home. I can't wait to see my old friends, and can only wonder of what new challenges lie ahead for me.
Ah, life.
i don't understand your heart
we might as well be strangers in another town
we might as well be living in another world
we might as well be living in another world
Saturday, April 4, 2009
sound of silence
Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.
Fools said I,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whispered in the sounds of silence.
-- Simon and Garfunkle
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.
Fools said I,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whispered in the sounds of silence.
-- Simon and Garfunkle
Friday, April 3, 2009
we're all part of one big symphony
i asked a question, and i got my answer
whatever just happened in the last day has completely bedazzled me
patience does pay off... and it was well worth the wait
i am sooo excited to see what happens in the future...
this is very, very cool
whatever just happened in the last day has completely bedazzled me
patience does pay off... and it was well worth the wait
i am sooo excited to see what happens in the future...
this is very, very cool
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
when every living breath was another new dawn
Yesterday night was super crazy. We had our end of year Vocal Jazz/Choir performances, and I think we did pretty well. I was super stressed about it... and for the silliest reasons too.
I've been feeling pretty horrible with my weight recently, and I really wanted to wear a black dress. So I did... but I didn't feel all that attractive. I know it should not matter; however, I feel like I'm irresponsible for letting my weight go! I know I'm not even big, but still, I neeed to lose the extra bumps here and there. I suppose that is just what happens when you're on a strict budget, and buy the cheapest, unhealthy foods. When I go home I'll get back on track and begin to eat right again.
Anyways, the concert went well. I think I did pretty well on my scat solo, and even though I've improved so much with my voice, I'm still super picky. After watching the year 3 and 4 vocal students perform, I was blown away. They've just further motivated me to improve on myself.
After the concert ended, most of us went down to the Red Martini lounge and had a few drinks and appies. There were students from the program playing live music, just like any other night. It felt really good to unwind. Later, we headed down to Paul's for a bit of a jam sesh and video games. Dustin and I also had a bit of a talk, which was awesome, because I really needed someone to just vent to. Dustin and Paul are pretty cool, and it's not often you find guys like that. We all just crashed there, and went to theory class today with hardly any sleep... so obviously I'm super tired.
Tonight consists of a ton of theory review, because I have NO idea what's going on right now in class... all I know is that it involves transposition... ahhh. And then, I plan to go to bed early. And holy toleedo, I have NO classes tomorrow... which is aweeesommme. So I can sleep in...!
p.s. rain on the coast makes me sad... blah. I would love some sunshine right now!
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