Guess what? It's 2 am and I'm still awake... again.
There are so many things that I am missing since I've come to Nanaimo. Not the material things, the emotional things. It's really hard. I miss the comfort of being at home for so many reasons.
a) because whenever I'd start to get depressed, I had my friends and family there for me.
b) the fact that I wasn't home alone all the time.
c) I knew everything about Cranbrook so I could go where ever I wanted to.
When you move away on your own, you begin to realize what human nature is really like. When I was in Cranbrook, I took my parents love for granted. They were always there. My mom would always give me hugs and just all the attention I could ever need. And I realize now just how essential that is to me. Whenever I'd feel lost about life or anything else, my mom would always just give me that really long hug where I could cry or whatever on her shoulder. It was so nice. I really wish she was here with me right now. I don't even know why I feel like this. I just feel so low. Sometimes it's even hard to smile around people. I'm just going to pray to God and have Him help me out because I don't know anyone I can turn to for help.
I should really sleep.
Peace, light and love to all.
xo
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