hardwire

I've been in Nanaimo for about 12 days now, and I'm just beginning to settle in. About two days after I'd arrived on the island I took a trip down to the place where I'll be living for the next 8 months, and it was a little shocking. It's basically a basement with three separate living areas, including private bathroom and kitchen, and only the shower is shared. I guess it was surprising at first because I wasn't used to the idea of me sleeping in my kitchen, and I think my landlord could kind of hear the disappointment in my voice when I said, "so this is my room?". Anyway, I ended up meeting one of my room mates, and she's such a sweet heart. Her name is Marie. She is also going to VIU with me, taking classes for dental assisting. She showed me how I could make my place more livable by adding certain things. One of my room mates hadn't moved in yet, so I took the table from her room and used it for myself haha. Oh well, it's a secret between Marie and I, so no harm done.
I immediately starting shopping for things to accentuate my room. The theme is mostly chocolate browns, lots of candles, a bit of blue and green, and a few lamps to add ambiance. If I'm going to be studying there, might as well make it comfortable. I also bought this hanging star made from glass to hang in my room. You can put a tea light inside it, and the end result is beautiful.
There was no microwave, skillet, or toaster in the kitchen so I have to purchase those as well. I failed to mention that I have been staying with Ryan and his family for the last 12 days. It's really nice of them to offer me a place to stay before I'm actually settled in, but eventually you get to the point where you think you're intruding on their lives. I usually get ready in the morning and head out with some people I've recently met in order to give his family some space.
I've also had a few terrible moments here. The most recent is where I went out with Ryan, Cori and Barry to a bar called The Queens. They offer live music 7 days a week, and I've been told it's the most popular choice among people for the dancing and alcohol. I went down and had my first Jager Bomb ( I know I know, it's very sad), and I loved it. Then came the Vodka slimes which I engulfed so fast. I got pretty drunk, and let's just say it wasn't the best night of my life. Some memories of the past were resurfacing, and it was difficult to keep my emotions down. I cried a lot. But after that night I realized that I'm here for a reason, and that's to work on my problems and try to become a happier person. And I know I will. It's just going to take some time. I need to meet new people and do things to make me conquer all those bad memories. All I want is to laugh, study, love (maybe?), listen to and play a lot of music, and dance.
I'm sure that once school starts, many of these things will come to me. I can't wait.

xx.