It's 8:07 AM on a Friday... I don't think I've been up this early in an entire week. I've been pretty restless from the events that unfolded before me yesterday, so I thought I'd crash with my friend Cori for the night. She had to work this morning, so I'm back at Ryan's. Yeah... yesterday was definitely not a good day for me, or Ryan.
How can I put this. I haven't been here for that long and already Ryan and I have had our first big argument. I'm sure it's all just a series of misunderstandings, but he's not willing to hear me out, and I don't know how I can listen to him either. I've heard that the best of friends fight, but the situation is so complex where I don't even know if we'll ever become friends again. It's probably the communication breach, or the fact that we grew up into people that are entirely polar opposites of one another - leaving us unable to see things eye to eye.
Ryan and I haven't really had a "real" conversation with one another at all. We don't even talk about things that are relevant to our interests. So, when there is a matter of conflict, he decides not to open up to me about what's bothering him. Instead he just hides it away, and pretends that everything is O.K. I grew up to be that kind of person that would rather hear the facts face-to-face. NOT over the internet, and definitely NOT through text. If you're going to say something, say it TO the person. Ryan, on the other hand, suffered so much over the last few years where he's learned to not trust many people, so the only way that he can communicate is through text or e-mail.
And that's what really hurts. The fact that I'm here for him, now, at this present time, and he gets so stubborn in his ways that he decides to completely avoid me, and say things about the kind of character that he's judged me to be. He even mentioned that I don't know a single thing about him... clearly he has no idea who I am either. He said I'm a hypocrite, a judgmental and criticizing being, who is so far up on her high horse that she can't see what's there.
I guess that's what you get for trying to help someone. They get defensive. They don't realize how much you're willing to take for them. It's hard to take when you're a victim of past circumstances. All I wanted to do was help him. Instead I got hurt - again.
I'll still be there for him. No matter what he said about me, I'll still be here. We're all beings of change, and maybe, one day, he'll realize what I tried to do for him and become friends again. Until then, I just can't be around him.
So I'm moving out today. My basement suite isn't yet ready to be lived in, but that's okay. I need some time for myself. I've been so wrapped up around other people lately that I've forgotten about my needs. I still need to purchase my groceries and kitchen supplies. I'll do that today and get out of the way. But there is some good news... my parents are arriving tomorrow with all the things I'll be needing in order to live on my own. I've missed my mother so much. I guess you really learn the true value of your parents once you move out. It even makes family relationships stronger. Maybe distance is what Ryan and I need to make our friendship stronger.
I have a lot to do today. I have to drop off my resume to a small coffee shop just down the street from where I live. I need to take a tour of the bus system to become familiar with the route. I need to buy a modern rug for my kitchen / bedroom. And most importantly, I need to pull myself together. I can't keep falling apart like this.
It's going to be a long day.
xx.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
hardwire
I've been in Nanaimo for about 12 days now, and I'm just beginning to settle in. About two days after I'd arrived on the island I took a trip down to the place where I'll be living for the next 8 months, and it was a little shocking. It's basically a basement with three separate living areas, including private bathroom and kitchen, and only the shower is shared. I guess it was surprising at first because I wasn't used to the idea of me sleeping in my kitchen, and I think my landlord could kind of hear the disappointment in my voice when I said, "so this is my room?". Anyway, I ended up meeting one of my room mates, and she's such a sweet heart. Her name is Marie. She is also going to VIU with me, taking classes for dental assisting. She showed me how I could make my place more livable by adding certain things. One of my room mates hadn't moved in yet, so I took the table from her room and used it for myself haha. Oh well, it's a secret between Marie and I, so no harm done.
I immediately starting shopping for things to accentuate my room. The theme is mostly chocolate browns, lots of candles, a bit of blue and green, and a few lamps to add ambiance. If I'm going to be studying there, might as well make it comfortable. I also bought this hanging star made from glass to hang in my room. You can put a tea light inside it, and the end result is beautiful.
There was no microwave, skillet, or toaster in the kitchen so I have to purchase those as well. I failed to mention that I have been staying with Ryan and his family for the last 12 days. It's really nice of them to offer me a place to stay before I'm actually settled in, but eventually you get to the point where you think you're intruding on their lives. I usually get ready in the morning and head out with some people I've recently met in order to give his family some space.
I've also had a few terrible moments here. The most recent is where I went out with Ryan, Cori and Barry to a bar called The Queens. They offer live music 7 days a week, and I've been told it's the most popular choice among people for the dancing and alcohol. I went down and had my first Jager Bomb ( I know I know, it's very sad), and I loved it. Then came the Vodka slimes which I engulfed so fast. I got pretty drunk, and let's just say it wasn't the best night of my life. Some memories of the past were resurfacing, and it was difficult to keep my emotions down. I cried a lot. But after that night I realized that I'm here for a reason, and that's to work on my problems and try to become a happier person. And I know I will. It's just going to take some time. I need to meet new people and do things to make me conquer all those bad memories. All I want is to laugh, study, love (maybe?), listen to and play a lot of music, and dance.
I'm sure that once school starts, many of these things will come to me. I can't wait.
xx.
I immediately starting shopping for things to accentuate my room. The theme is mostly chocolate browns, lots of candles, a bit of blue and green, and a few lamps to add ambiance. If I'm going to be studying there, might as well make it comfortable. I also bought this hanging star made from glass to hang in my room. You can put a tea light inside it, and the end result is beautiful.
There was no microwave, skillet, or toaster in the kitchen so I have to purchase those as well. I failed to mention that I have been staying with Ryan and his family for the last 12 days. It's really nice of them to offer me a place to stay before I'm actually settled in, but eventually you get to the point where you think you're intruding on their lives. I usually get ready in the morning and head out with some people I've recently met in order to give his family some space.
I've also had a few terrible moments here. The most recent is where I went out with Ryan, Cori and Barry to a bar called The Queens. They offer live music 7 days a week, and I've been told it's the most popular choice among people for the dancing and alcohol. I went down and had my first Jager Bomb ( I know I know, it's very sad), and I loved it. Then came the Vodka slimes which I engulfed so fast. I got pretty drunk, and let's just say it wasn't the best night of my life. Some memories of the past were resurfacing, and it was difficult to keep my emotions down. I cried a lot. But after that night I realized that I'm here for a reason, and that's to work on my problems and try to become a happier person. And I know I will. It's just going to take some time. I need to meet new people and do things to make me conquer all those bad memories. All I want is to laugh, study, love (maybe?), listen to and play a lot of music, and dance.
I'm sure that once school starts, many of these things will come to me. I can't wait.
xx.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
she's leaving on a jet plane
Moving for the first time from your family is so hard. I'm finally here in Nanaimo, and it's been a bit of a roller coaster. I left on Monday from the cranbrook airport without even having a goodbye hug from my mom... i checked in early, and then later i realized that i coudln't go back to where she was! We were seperated by a wall of glass... the only way i was able to communicate with her was by writing a text message on my phone and then showing it to her through the glass. When it was time for departure, I just waved bye, held back the tears, and got on the plane. I cried so much... I felt sorry for the lady sitting right next to me haha.
I got into Nanaimo at about 2pm and Ryan picked me up. We didn't have much to talk about... so it was a pretty long drive to his house (or it at least felt like it). When we got there, we realized his parents weren't home, so we decided to go grab a bite to eat. I had the best sushi at this place called the Blue Ginger. You can get a pretty decent sized lunch platter for about 10 dollars. I engulfed everything on the plate.
I started to feel pretty low. I guess it's because reality finally hit me and said "you're on your own now". I tried to look for ways to pass the time. Ryan's entire family was home including his uncle Barry, his brother Derek, and Derek's wife Lisa. I felt like I was at home by being around them. They are a very loving family indeed.
I was mainly looking forward to the Radiohead concert the next day... and it was the most amazing concert I have ever been to... hands down. Ryan and I grabbed the ferry to vancouver, and Dan picked me up from the dock. we drove around waiting until 1 pm so we could meet up with Jackie, Gwen, Kyla, Dan, and Dan's wife Andrea at the Bosman hotel. We had nothing better to do so we drove around downtown Van... and let's just say that looking for a parking spot can be quite the adventure. We met up with dan's sister Leah downtown. I thought she was so cool and nice. Didn't talk to her much though. We hung out at HMV for awhile looking through music and movies. it was about 1:30 and we decided to head to the hotel we would be staying at.
To summarize things quickly, let's just say that we met up with the crew, Dan took off, the rest of us took a bus to UBC stadium for the concert, we got in, we were horrified by the 10 dollar beer, we got some Radiohead shirts, it was beginning to rain, the Liars opened for Radiohead, Dan met up with us, and then Radiohead finally came on stage about 3 hours later.
I've never seen a crowd so hyped in my life. Thom came out on stage, said some crazy things, and began to play. Their first song was 15 step. I was literally in heaven. I videotaped most of their performances on my cell phone even though it was raining. But who the fuck cares? I can't even say how amazing it was in words. You just had to be there to get the effect.
When the show ended, it was literally a downpour. Thousands of people began making their way off UBC grounds, and we were soaked. The buses weren't running in full service and it pissed off tons of people. We realized that we were pretty much screwed, so we headed to Gage building and took shelter. There were 6 of us that needed to get home fast so we could get warm and go to sleep. It was a good thing that Dan was there to save us, so he picked us up and got us home. We celebrated with pizza haha. Then it was time for some shut eye.
Since the concert ended I've been pretty bored. I've mainly just hung out with Ryan and his family. I went for a walk with Trina and Jackie, and I think we're going to make curry tonight... I can't wait. I've been waiting for some east indian cuisine. I hope it turns out good... because I'm making it! I'm so nervous... I hope I payed enough attention to my mom's directions on good curry...
I'm going to go and google up some ideas on making curry even more spectacular.
xx.
I got into Nanaimo at about 2pm and Ryan picked me up. We didn't have much to talk about... so it was a pretty long drive to his house (or it at least felt like it). When we got there, we realized his parents weren't home, so we decided to go grab a bite to eat. I had the best sushi at this place called the Blue Ginger. You can get a pretty decent sized lunch platter for about 10 dollars. I engulfed everything on the plate.
I started to feel pretty low. I guess it's because reality finally hit me and said "you're on your own now". I tried to look for ways to pass the time. Ryan's entire family was home including his uncle Barry, his brother Derek, and Derek's wife Lisa. I felt like I was at home by being around them. They are a very loving family indeed.
I was mainly looking forward to the Radiohead concert the next day... and it was the most amazing concert I have ever been to... hands down. Ryan and I grabbed the ferry to vancouver, and Dan picked me up from the dock. we drove around waiting until 1 pm so we could meet up with Jackie, Gwen, Kyla, Dan, and Dan's wife Andrea at the Bosman hotel. We had nothing better to do so we drove around downtown Van... and let's just say that looking for a parking spot can be quite the adventure. We met up with dan's sister Leah downtown. I thought she was so cool and nice. Didn't talk to her much though. We hung out at HMV for awhile looking through music and movies. it was about 1:30 and we decided to head to the hotel we would be staying at.
To summarize things quickly, let's just say that we met up with the crew, Dan took off, the rest of us took a bus to UBC stadium for the concert, we got in, we were horrified by the 10 dollar beer, we got some Radiohead shirts, it was beginning to rain, the Liars opened for Radiohead, Dan met up with us, and then Radiohead finally came on stage about 3 hours later.
I've never seen a crowd so hyped in my life. Thom came out on stage, said some crazy things, and began to play. Their first song was 15 step. I was literally in heaven. I videotaped most of their performances on my cell phone even though it was raining. But who the fuck cares? I can't even say how amazing it was in words. You just had to be there to get the effect.
When the show ended, it was literally a downpour. Thousands of people began making their way off UBC grounds, and we were soaked. The buses weren't running in full service and it pissed off tons of people. We realized that we were pretty much screwed, so we headed to Gage building and took shelter. There were 6 of us that needed to get home fast so we could get warm and go to sleep. It was a good thing that Dan was there to save us, so he picked us up and got us home. We celebrated with pizza haha. Then it was time for some shut eye.
Since the concert ended I've been pretty bored. I've mainly just hung out with Ryan and his family. I went for a walk with Trina and Jackie, and I think we're going to make curry tonight... I can't wait. I've been waiting for some east indian cuisine. I hope it turns out good... because I'm making it! I'm so nervous... I hope I payed enough attention to my mom's directions on good curry...
I'm going to go and google up some ideas on making curry even more spectacular.
xx.
breathe me
If there is anything I miss right now, it's you.
If there is anyone I want to be right now, it's you.
If there is anywhere I want to be right now, it's with you.
4 beautiful years.
If there is anyone I want to be right now, it's you.
If there is anywhere I want to be right now, it's with you.
4 beautiful years.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
summer skin
Last night was such a great night. I was able to hang out with Naomi and Katie at elizabeth park and just have some quality time. We wanted to have dinner together first, so we headed to Dante's and we all ordered the same dish... lasagna! It was deliiicious. I was amazed to see Naomi and Kate devour their entire plate and I could only eat half of it! Sooo filling.
Katie made me a scrapbook of photos of the three of us. It nearly made me die of laughter. We are really a silly bunch. I don't think people really understand our humour, but it's better to stay young as long as you can! I was drawn to tears by how thoughtful she was! I just hid my tears and smiled instead.
And then we went to the lake! It was absolutely gooorgeous outside. 32 degrees and clear skies! So we once again had a photo shoot and took some pretty wacky photos.
Today I went for lunch with noelle and just talked about our worries of school. I won't lie, we're both pretty terrified. But I know that she and I will have a great time. It will be so good to get away from this town and meet new people and experience new things. I know she'll love calgary, and I know she will succeed in whatever she does. I hope I do well too.
I'm so lucky to have such a good group of caring friends. It's hard to find people who don't start drama or judge you by just looking at you. I think people definetely need to accept people for who they are. Everyone is beautiful in their own unique way.
Well anywho, I'm off of work now. I finally get to get my cell phone today! I haven't had one since grade 12, so I know I'll get addicted to the texting again... shucks.
xx.
Katie made me a scrapbook of photos of the three of us. It nearly made me die of laughter. We are really a silly bunch. I don't think people really understand our humour, but it's better to stay young as long as you can! I was drawn to tears by how thoughtful she was! I just hid my tears and smiled instead.
And then we went to the lake! It was absolutely gooorgeous outside. 32 degrees and clear skies! So we once again had a photo shoot and took some pretty wacky photos.
Today I went for lunch with noelle and just talked about our worries of school. I won't lie, we're both pretty terrified. But I know that she and I will have a great time. It will be so good to get away from this town and meet new people and experience new things. I know she'll love calgary, and I know she will succeed in whatever she does. I hope I do well too.
I'm so lucky to have such a good group of caring friends. It's hard to find people who don't start drama or judge you by just looking at you. I think people definetely need to accept people for who they are. Everyone is beautiful in their own unique way.
Well anywho, I'm off of work now. I finally get to get my cell phone today! I haven't had one since grade 12, so I know I'll get addicted to the texting again... shucks.
xx.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
don't be defeated, defeat it
Today I feel kind of low. I love being active and healthy, but I don't think I'm doing enough to get to where I want to be. I'm not satisfied I guess you could say.
Satisfied - the one word that can be used for a variety of things, thoughts, and feelings. To me, being satisfied would be to reach my goal. The "goal" is still very far from now... but in order to reach it, one must be patient and have some faith in themselves.
That faith has dwindled over the past week. Eating should bring pleasure, not pain. It should be something that brings people together, not pull them apart.
Most people know that back in grade 12 I had a pretty serious eating disorder. I was literally "starving for attention", and of course, I did get the attention that I wanted. I felt great about myself. I could fit in size 0-2 clothing and look amazing. At least I thought I looked amazing... until one day my friend brought a mirror to me and a picture of what I had used to look like.
I lost it all. I had no curves. I was basically a walking skeleton, who thought she looked great. Nothing but a skeleton dressed in rags.. not the tight clothing I thought it was. Even the smallest of sizes just looked big on me. I was a mess.
Everyone told me that I had to recover. I had to get past the idea that the only way I could be loved was to be frail and unhealthy. People loved me before the disorder struck, but my selfishness always got in the way, and I actually ended up pushing quite a few people away with my stubborness.
So I decided to get healthy. It wasn't easy, of course. Before, I could eat and know when to stop. After the anorexia, I would eat.. but I lost track of how much a person would have to eat in a day, and of what to eat. So I went on binges. And after every binge I would sit in the corner with my stomach protruding from my tiny frame and just cry. I would cry from the pain, the water retention, and of course, the thought of me getting fat. It was hell.
The worst part of all was that even though I was getting healthy and gaining weight, I had lost most of my muscle mass. I used to be a really active, built teenager when I was younger, but after starving myself religiously, there was no muscle left to feed. I literally became a walking blob. It only made my confidence in myself worse.
After 2 years of my battle, I finally recovered. I hit the gym, I did weights, I did episodes of cardio, and at last I was starting to feel good in my own skin. I finally know how to balance my caloric intake, the balance of both the healthy and unhealthy foods, and to not beat myself up if I over ate one day. There is always tomorrow.
And I guess that's where I'm at right now. I haven't been able to get the exercise I've been wanting this week, and I haven't been eating the greatest. I think part of it has to do with the stress of leaving home and living alone, the classes I am going to be taking, and leaving all the people I love back in Cranbrook.
It's more than all of that too. I felt beautiful when I was thinner. I didn't have anything holding me back. I didn't have to worry about my weight, and that helped me focus in school. I had legs that people would die for. And now I don't really look like that. I guess you could say that I feel defeated. It really should be the opposite, because I did defeat my eating disorder, but the feelings of shame and guilt still stay in my mind. I would love to stop wearing the clothing that covers my flaws... mainly my love handles, stomach and thighs.
Nanaimo will bring major changes to my self-esteem... in a good way. I know that i'll have more time to just focus upon myself, and get my body AND mind in gear. I want to run some marathons, lift more weights, eat more conciously, and most of all, learn to love myself for who I am. After all, if you can't learn to love yourself, how will you learn to love the other people around you?
Satisfied - the one word that can be used for a variety of things, thoughts, and feelings. To me, being satisfied would be to reach my goal. The "goal" is still very far from now... but in order to reach it, one must be patient and have some faith in themselves.
That faith has dwindled over the past week. Eating should bring pleasure, not pain. It should be something that brings people together, not pull them apart.
Most people know that back in grade 12 I had a pretty serious eating disorder. I was literally "starving for attention", and of course, I did get the attention that I wanted. I felt great about myself. I could fit in size 0-2 clothing and look amazing. At least I thought I looked amazing... until one day my friend brought a mirror to me and a picture of what I had used to look like.
I lost it all. I had no curves. I was basically a walking skeleton, who thought she looked great. Nothing but a skeleton dressed in rags.. not the tight clothing I thought it was. Even the smallest of sizes just looked big on me. I was a mess.
Everyone told me that I had to recover. I had to get past the idea that the only way I could be loved was to be frail and unhealthy. People loved me before the disorder struck, but my selfishness always got in the way, and I actually ended up pushing quite a few people away with my stubborness.
So I decided to get healthy. It wasn't easy, of course. Before, I could eat and know when to stop. After the anorexia, I would eat.. but I lost track of how much a person would have to eat in a day, and of what to eat. So I went on binges. And after every binge I would sit in the corner with my stomach protruding from my tiny frame and just cry. I would cry from the pain, the water retention, and of course, the thought of me getting fat. It was hell.
The worst part of all was that even though I was getting healthy and gaining weight, I had lost most of my muscle mass. I used to be a really active, built teenager when I was younger, but after starving myself religiously, there was no muscle left to feed. I literally became a walking blob. It only made my confidence in myself worse.
After 2 years of my battle, I finally recovered. I hit the gym, I did weights, I did episodes of cardio, and at last I was starting to feel good in my own skin. I finally know how to balance my caloric intake, the balance of both the healthy and unhealthy foods, and to not beat myself up if I over ate one day. There is always tomorrow.
And I guess that's where I'm at right now. I haven't been able to get the exercise I've been wanting this week, and I haven't been eating the greatest. I think part of it has to do with the stress of leaving home and living alone, the classes I am going to be taking, and leaving all the people I love back in Cranbrook.
It's more than all of that too. I felt beautiful when I was thinner. I didn't have anything holding me back. I didn't have to worry about my weight, and that helped me focus in school. I had legs that people would die for. And now I don't really look like that. I guess you could say that I feel defeated. It really should be the opposite, because I did defeat my eating disorder, but the feelings of shame and guilt still stay in my mind. I would love to stop wearing the clothing that covers my flaws... mainly my love handles, stomach and thighs.
Nanaimo will bring major changes to my self-esteem... in a good way. I know that i'll have more time to just focus upon myself, and get my body AND mind in gear. I want to run some marathons, lift more weights, eat more conciously, and most of all, learn to love myself for who I am. After all, if you can't learn to love yourself, how will you learn to love the other people around you?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
strawberry swing
"People moving all the time, inside a perfectly straight line.
Don't you want to curve away... it's such a perfect day."
So here I am - my very first blog entry. Soon it will be full of memories of the past, present, and thoughts about the future. I hope that one day I will be able to reflect upon my entries, and be proud of the person I've become.
I have one week left until I leave Cranbrook and begin actually "living" my life the way I want it to be lived. I'll be attending Vancouver Island University in the fall, pursuing a career in Nutrition - it's all very exciting.
As exciting as it is, I am also very sad to leave my parents and my friends who have been there for me through the thick and thin. Cranbrook holds so many memories... those that are good, and those that are bad. So leaving would mean starting a new life where no one can judge me of my past.
But yes. My parents. Oh, I love them for all that they've done for me. When I would lose my way down the road, they'd find me, and bring me back to the proper highway route. They've made me into the woman I am now. I won't ever forget their teachings. They truly are a blessing.
And of course, my friends. I've met so many people this last year, and I think I've finally found the best lot. It's hard to find those who will listen to you during your darkest moments, and laugh with you during those that are full of light. I know I've made many mistakes after high school, but they did help me regain conciousness of my doings, and help me become a better person. I love each and every one of them from the bottom of my heart. And they know it. (They'd better know it!)
I went for lunch with Nick today. He truly is one of those people who will do anything to make your day better. I had to squeeze him into my schedule before I take off. We went to Mr. Mike's and had some food - the childhood favorite of course... chicken fingers :) . We just talked about our adventures over the last two weeks, and laughed about some funny moments. We talked about school in the fall, and how unusual it will be to lose so many of our good friends to different institutions or jobs. After some chit-chat, he dropped me off at work, and we said our final good-byes until the winter time. He'll be in my prayers.
The entire week has me revolving around my friends. I would feel terrible to not see them before I leave... tomorrow night consists of dinner with Naomi and Katie. I'm sure we'll have fun and just have some nice girl time... something we haven't gotten a lot of this summer...
I've just recently moved to Marysville, and boy do I love it! The drive home is always so beautiful. It doesn't matter what the weather is... it just always looks serene and calm. I love to just sit in the passenger seat with my headphones in and listen to some Coldplay or Elbow. My famiy loves it, too.
Tonight I HAVE to get my packing done! Ugh, I'm such a procrastinator! So much has to get done... and I don't even know where to start! (Actually... I do... the laundry MUST get done!). After all that, I just want to sit down and unwind with my mother. We don't get much alone time after all.
xx
Don't you want to curve away... it's such a perfect day."
So here I am - my very first blog entry. Soon it will be full of memories of the past, present, and thoughts about the future. I hope that one day I will be able to reflect upon my entries, and be proud of the person I've become.
I have one week left until I leave Cranbrook and begin actually "living" my life the way I want it to be lived. I'll be attending Vancouver Island University in the fall, pursuing a career in Nutrition - it's all very exciting.
As exciting as it is, I am also very sad to leave my parents and my friends who have been there for me through the thick and thin. Cranbrook holds so many memories... those that are good, and those that are bad. So leaving would mean starting a new life where no one can judge me of my past.
But yes. My parents. Oh, I love them for all that they've done for me. When I would lose my way down the road, they'd find me, and bring me back to the proper highway route. They've made me into the woman I am now. I won't ever forget their teachings. They truly are a blessing.
And of course, my friends. I've met so many people this last year, and I think I've finally found the best lot. It's hard to find those who will listen to you during your darkest moments, and laugh with you during those that are full of light. I know I've made many mistakes after high school, but they did help me regain conciousness of my doings, and help me become a better person. I love each and every one of them from the bottom of my heart. And they know it. (They'd better know it!)
I went for lunch with Nick today. He truly is one of those people who will do anything to make your day better. I had to squeeze him into my schedule before I take off. We went to Mr. Mike's and had some food - the childhood favorite of course... chicken fingers :) . We just talked about our adventures over the last two weeks, and laughed about some funny moments. We talked about school in the fall, and how unusual it will be to lose so many of our good friends to different institutions or jobs. After some chit-chat, he dropped me off at work, and we said our final good-byes until the winter time. He'll be in my prayers.
The entire week has me revolving around my friends. I would feel terrible to not see them before I leave... tomorrow night consists of dinner with Naomi and Katie. I'm sure we'll have fun and just have some nice girl time... something we haven't gotten a lot of this summer...
I've just recently moved to Marysville, and boy do I love it! The drive home is always so beautiful. It doesn't matter what the weather is... it just always looks serene and calm. I love to just sit in the passenger seat with my headphones in and listen to some Coldplay or Elbow. My famiy loves it, too.
Tonight I HAVE to get my packing done! Ugh, I'm such a procrastinator! So much has to get done... and I don't even know where to start! (Actually... I do... the laundry MUST get done!). After all that, I just want to sit down and unwind with my mother. We don't get much alone time after all.
xx
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