You may say that I'm a dreamerBut I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
imagine
You may say that I'm a dreamerBut I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
enjoy the ride
Have you ever wondered how some people can be so happy even in the most trying of times? They stick out like sore thumbs!
I've always wanted to be like that - completely carefree about everything. I think that's why many of us are drawn to social situations. You run into these kinds of people, and suddenly the world seems like a better place.
I've been analyzing these social beings, and I've come to many different conclusions on why they are so exuberant about life:
It is human nature to repel away from stressful, painful situations. We are placed in these kinds of environments whether its against our will or not, so we look for that gateway to allow for peace of mind and fun.
Now, who wants to be around a sad, depressed person after a difficult week? Not many at all. And how many of those depressed, sad people want to be in that state? No one! So, we go hang out with people who make us happy.
I don't know what I could do without these people who have that flare for life, no matter how hard it can get. Sometimes I think I'm a downer by the way I can be at parties.
Ever since I was a little girl, I've always been the same way: I over think about everything. I can be talking to a person about something serious, and still be thinking about other conflicting issues. It's like I have ADD (I know I don't have it... but sometimes it feels as though I might). When something is stressing me out, I poke and pry around my brain for solutions to my problems.
It's a nice change to be around people who are happy with life. That is how I should be. I shouldn't beat myself up over little issues. Just live life to it's fullest. And whatever is going to happen will happen. It's a matter that is completely out of my hands.
Well, time to go back to studying for finals. Have a pretty eventful week ahead of me. Girls night tomorrow, cookie baking on Sunday, and a Christmas party on Monday! Yeow!
God bless,
x
I've always wanted to be like that - completely carefree about everything. I think that's why many of us are drawn to social situations. You run into these kinds of people, and suddenly the world seems like a better place.
I've been analyzing these social beings, and I've come to many different conclusions on why they are so exuberant about life:
It is human nature to repel away from stressful, painful situations. We are placed in these kinds of environments whether its against our will or not, so we look for that gateway to allow for peace of mind and fun.
Now, who wants to be around a sad, depressed person after a difficult week? Not many at all. And how many of those depressed, sad people want to be in that state? No one! So, we go hang out with people who make us happy.
I don't know what I could do without these people who have that flare for life, no matter how hard it can get. Sometimes I think I'm a downer by the way I can be at parties.
Ever since I was a little girl, I've always been the same way: I over think about everything. I can be talking to a person about something serious, and still be thinking about other conflicting issues. It's like I have ADD (I know I don't have it... but sometimes it feels as though I might). When something is stressing me out, I poke and pry around my brain for solutions to my problems.
It's a nice change to be around people who are happy with life. That is how I should be. I shouldn't beat myself up over little issues. Just live life to it's fullest. And whatever is going to happen will happen. It's a matter that is completely out of my hands.
Well, time to go back to studying for finals. Have a pretty eventful week ahead of me. Girls night tomorrow, cookie baking on Sunday, and a Christmas party on Monday! Yeow!
God bless,
x
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
me, i'm just playing along
Wow - I can't believe how long it's been since the last time I've written.
So many things, big and small, have happened in such a short period of time. Happy things, sad things, confusing things, and disappointing things.
I guess you could say I've become more insightful. I've detached myself from many aspects that once burdened my life. Nanaimo has allowed me to realize so many things about myself that I probably would not have noticed had I stayed in Cranbrook.
Physically, there are two "Harkamal's" that exist. There's the selfish, unsympathetic, and destructive one that resides in Cranbrook, and then there is the enlightened, joyeous and blossoming one who resides in Nanaimo.
Why am I making these two comparisons? Well, let's just say that going home will be a huge challenge - a challenge that will test my strength to not revert back to my old ways.
I have this fear that's eating me from within. I'm so terrified of forgetting what inner peace really is. I was able to break free from the mind struggles and finally begin to think clearly on my own. I am plagued by the "what if's." For instance, "what if" I am left with two choices, and the decision I make reflects on my lack of faith and strength? Am I doomed to failure? How can I open the eyes of those who are left to walk ahead blindfolded? How can I get them to feel what I've felt and encountered?
I've told myself over and over again that I will stand up for what I believe is right. Saying something and doing something are two completely different things. I need to build up my strength so that when the situation arises I may be prepared for the unexpected.
The one main challenge is convincing my parents (mainly my Dad) that what I believe in isn't wrong. That I've finally grown up, and that I can easily distinguish between the bad and good (and of course I know that many will say, "well what exactly is bad and good, and what gives you the right to say you can EASILY distinguish between the two?" - Well, my answer will come from deep within my heart and spirit. Every individual has the right to their own distinctions between the wrong and right).
I never thought this blog would have been THIS deep; however, I am burdened by my thoughts (I wish I could turn off my brain from time to time).
On a more happier note, I can say that I have been blessed by the latest series of events that have occured over the last few weeks. I've met so many loving people who can relate to me in many ways, and that I can relate to them too is awesome!
God, please continue to shed light upon any darkness I may have in my heart, and that you will prevent me from going astray on this path of life.
Night. x
So many things, big and small, have happened in such a short period of time. Happy things, sad things, confusing things, and disappointing things.
I guess you could say I've become more insightful. I've detached myself from many aspects that once burdened my life. Nanaimo has allowed me to realize so many things about myself that I probably would not have noticed had I stayed in Cranbrook.
Physically, there are two "Harkamal's" that exist. There's the selfish, unsympathetic, and destructive one that resides in Cranbrook, and then there is the enlightened, joyeous and blossoming one who resides in Nanaimo.
Why am I making these two comparisons? Well, let's just say that going home will be a huge challenge - a challenge that will test my strength to not revert back to my old ways.
I have this fear that's eating me from within. I'm so terrified of forgetting what inner peace really is. I was able to break free from the mind struggles and finally begin to think clearly on my own. I am plagued by the "what if's." For instance, "what if" I am left with two choices, and the decision I make reflects on my lack of faith and strength? Am I doomed to failure? How can I open the eyes of those who are left to walk ahead blindfolded? How can I get them to feel what I've felt and encountered?
I've told myself over and over again that I will stand up for what I believe is right. Saying something and doing something are two completely different things. I need to build up my strength so that when the situation arises I may be prepared for the unexpected.
The one main challenge is convincing my parents (mainly my Dad) that what I believe in isn't wrong. That I've finally grown up, and that I can easily distinguish between the bad and good (and of course I know that many will say, "well what exactly is bad and good, and what gives you the right to say you can EASILY distinguish between the two?" - Well, my answer will come from deep within my heart and spirit. Every individual has the right to their own distinctions between the wrong and right).
I never thought this blog would have been THIS deep; however, I am burdened by my thoughts (I wish I could turn off my brain from time to time).
On a more happier note, I can say that I have been blessed by the latest series of events that have occured over the last few weeks. I've met so many loving people who can relate to me in many ways, and that I can relate to them too is awesome!
God, please continue to shed light upon any darkness I may have in my heart, and that you will prevent me from going astray on this path of life.
Night. x
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