color right off the page.

This whole week has proven to be the most challenging and motivating time of my life. It's funny when you finally come out of your dazed lifestyle and see the world from a whole new perspective. Gratuity flows from your inner being creating change in ways you'd never thought possible.
Since graduating, I have finally accepted that I had matured very, very slowly. I allowed myself to become terribly self-destructive, further pulling myself from all the positive potential that could have turned my world right side up.
Thankfully though the universe made things much better, and brought amazing people into my life that allowed me to embrace who I am, instead of hiding in the shadows.
Of course there are the good days, and the bad days. Battling the bad days is just another test of strength that continues to lift me higher up.
Being back home is painfully lonely, but I came back with a vision of prosperity and you have to suffer in order to receive the fruits of life. Plus, there is beauty in everyday, and every moment, which can make going through change a little easier.
Fall down seven times, stand up eight.

up on the bridge.

we watched the train head out, and vanish from our sight
the light upon this bridge seems no lonelier than I
oh, i'm going nowhere
oh, i'm going nowhere

don't ever stop.

cherish everything in your life.
the good, the bad, the sweet, the sour.
because things always turn around
if you keep your heart pumping.

jump inside yourself.

i've learned so much
but there's still so much yet to learn.

floating.

everyone is talking
but all i can see are their lips moving.

i want to try.

there is so much i want,
and so much i feel i can do without
but when it happens
i feel like it shouldn't be lost...

run for your life.

yessss

become a language of love .

"Whenever there is love you will be a king. And then you are free — because it is a question of love; it does not depend on her. Whenever there is love you will be a king; whenever there is not love you will be a beggar. It is love that gives you the glory. Yes, the love has come through her window; it can come through any other window. It can simply shower on you without anybody. It simply needs understanding — that it is love, not the person. The person is instrumental. Then you are not imprisoning the person. Love cannot be imprisoned and there is no need to imprison it. Love is your song — you can sing it any time. It is like breathing. Nobody is going to take it away from you; nobody can take it away from you."

Osho

my bed is still a mess.

dear,
i had a feeling come around
when your kisses had died
and that little part of me
that was going crazy inside
said, just let it be

i froze for you
and this cold fall air
brought you back round
with words so broken
so much left unspoken
that i wonder if your heart
is even in the right place.

2 degrees.

get an education, make money, make a future
but once all the works gone
and the money's dried up
that we know there is no time but now
so let's explore together
and see what life's really about.
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 ...

circles, rotations.

caffeine, marijuana, happiness, love
but this is a high like no other
chance after chance i pushed it away
until at last i got cornered by what makes me, me.
some things aren't so bad